Thursday, February 17, 2011

Tearing down my box...

Due to my Type A personality I have made quite the TINY box for myself to live in over the last 10 years. I had the 10 year plan and, in my opinion, stuck to that plan quite nicely.

I got married and finished school, bought a house/sold it and bought another, got a job that I've been at for 7 years, took very planned vacations each summer, and have not had kids yet (because I haven't wanted to).

I'll admit that I've liked the box that I've lived in. I've been comfortable. It's kind of nice being comfortable. But God doesn't want us to get too comfy.

God has been challenging me over the last year to tear down apart my TINY box and I don't think I've done a very good job of listening. My health has not been great since last April, and in September Layton took a job in San Francisco. Both of these things shook the TINY little box that I've built for myself. The last year has not been extremely easy for me due to both of these circumstances. I now see that God dropped both of these circumstances inside my box to make me step outside of it and to allow Him to create a new box for me. I am not scared anymore because I know that God has already overcome anything scary that I may face in my life.

John 16:33 says: "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world."

Today I tore away a little corner of my box and I am learning to find peace in that. I informed my job that I will not be returning at the end of this school year due to the fact that I'm moving.

Yes, that's right. This person who has only lived in 3 houses during her almost 30 years of life. This person who said they WOULD NEVER move even a tiny bit away from family. Layton and I are moving to the Bay Area this summer!! We don't know exactly what city we'll end up in, but I have peace that God is going to provide the perfect house for us to rent in the perfect city. I have peace that God will guide me to the right doctors there so that we can figure out the next step in getting me healthy again. I have peace now knowing that God is tearing down my box because good things are about to happen once I step outside of that TINY box.

This whole process has been God's timing (I'll write another blog about that later). I can't help but have peace. I am so excited to start a new decade in a month and a half. I am so excited for what the year 30 is going to bring!!

1 comment:

  1. I am so proud of you for breaking out and allowing God to do new things in and through you. Love you friend!